fifi lapin addict

fifi lapin

gyaa,they are really cute right ?
i just bought the t-shirt with fifi lapin printed *anxious*
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far

yes,indeed we are really far now.
i couldn't describe our relationship.
it changes a lot as i know,and i know you know it better than me.
i hate the fact that it changes so fast,so fast until i don't know when did it started to be like this.
day by day,we're more far,we're less talking,we only speak about something important or just around saying 'hello and bye'.
that fact makes me more hate it.
how could it change to be like this ?
the more i think about it,
the more i confuse myself,
the more i keep asking am i doing wrong ? am i make you mad ? are you hate me ? are you bored with me ?
that stupid thought fulling my head recently.
i wish i can ask you about this,
but i know you will deny it
probably you will say nothing's wrong,everything's okay,you are the one thinking about that and i'm not.
that's why i hold that question up until now.
i know you are somebody who's not showing off your feeling.

friendship seems so complicated recently

begging a fool forgiveness

Hey ya ! Watch your words ! Don't judge people easily if you still don't know what's happening.
For that case,I'm sure I am not wrong and you,you're not wrong,the fact is that condition make it bad. But you ?how could you mad with me and saying such a ridiculous thing to me ? In that case,sure I am not wrong ! How could you make it bad like I am the one who was wrong ?the worse I know you tell every one about this.

I know,once,if I was not wrong,and you mad with me,though I don't get what's wrong with me,still I am begging for your forgiveness. But now,sorry,I have my pride now. I was re-thinking about the past that I am begging you like a fool and yes,I am really fool that time. I am so afraid of losing friends. But now I was thinking actually What's the point of begging your forgiveness ? Well,I might be forgive and we're going close again. But,in other hand,you would never understand what's wrong with you. You would never know your fault. So from now on Since I am not wrong,I will not going to say sorry. Maybe you will hate me,but that's alright. I know someday you will realize.
And if you keep playing cool with me,like keep acting I am not there when I near to you,talking less to me or sometimes even not any words,that was all up to you. I don't care anymore if you dislike me or hate me,cause with you or without you,my life still should go on.