Sorry,but you're change

I don't know what should i do friend,i really don't know.I'm searching a lot of plans so you can forgive me but you don't want to know and even don't reply it.I am really give up now.I tried to explain but you're not listening anyway.What can i do ?if you don't want to forgive me or even going to hate me,that's your choice.Not mine.The one who's not understand her friends is you,not me.Now it's clear.Whenever you're telling me about your problem with social relationship,whenever you're telling me that someone hurts you,it's clear.The one who is always wrong were you.That time i was so blind really blind that i support you.Well,not all was your fault,but what i want to said is try to understand your friends.You tried to protect your friendship with her but it seems not like my friendship with you.Sometimes i can taught you're close with me just because no friends at all that could accompany you and cheer you up.Is it really that kind of reason ?Am i the one who's got to be blame ?what's wrong with you ?you're the one who said she's changing she's changing but now the truth is you're also changing.Not the same girl that i known anymore.Totally different.
I'm not wishing you should forgive me now,but think it,just because i'm not going to your sweetseventeen party,our friendship should be apart ??You know it shouldn't be.So....i have explain why i couldn't join and now it's your turn to response me.Please ??But if you can't make it,then i should say our friendship is just a memory to you and me.A memory that will be deleted someday.

Crimes month

After my robbed accident 1 august 2010,there are several alike accident which happen to some of my friends at school.Some of them loses more things than me.It becomes danger to everyone in medan,cause it seems that,a criminals events always happen every time and every where.It comes really fast and so unpredictable by us.Everyday i saw the news and everyday i found out robbery,theft and others alike.The most sensational accident is that one at CIMB niaga bank.The criminals cover up their faces and use guns,then attack everyone in the bank.Unfortunately three peoples dead in that accident.And they loses 300 millions.Seems they're so professional cause till now the police haven't got any clue to catch them.

Lately,i mean yesterday,i just been informed that some thieves are doing their action in my aunt house !!! i can't predict how much money and things that loses but i know that's a large amount cause my family called the police.Till today,there are no signs and clues to find the thieves.But i just hope the thieves will got busted later.The one who're robbed my bag and the one whore stealing at my aunt house,i just hope someday they got busted and caught in the jail !!

Doesn't it so ironic ? This is a pure month to them,but they're doing such things in this months.I just thought it was so ironic.Well,we don't know exactly who're robbed my bag and who're stealing my aunt house,but after what i saw in news,much of them,is 'that' kind of person (u know what i mean ***** )


ps : hypnotist and others crime is really happening now.I suggest don't go everywhere alone and don't use expensive necklace,watches,bracelets or rings that can attract their attention.Be careful guys !

Realize

Sorry for not updating my blog,cause i'm kinda busy with a lot of things these day.

My deepest condolence to jenny wijaya family for what have been happening to your beloved daughter.We know it must be really hard to pass this.But i believed,all of you can stand again although there must be a time.Be strong and face it as it was an accident that couldn't be prevented.Just take a lesson from this accident and hopes there's no kind of this accident anymore.
Farewell jenny wijaya

That accident realizing me for something.A question. 'if i am the one who loses some of my families members or my beloved friends,how should i react ?'.I am so realized that i might not been ready to face that.If i'm losing my both parents i don't know what should i do.I don't know how should i face the world.It just, i am so scared with the future guys.No one know what facing us in the future.No one.And if there's suddenly something terrible happen,i really don't know what should i do.
I'm not ready to lose my beloved peoples around me.I can't believed i can pass that and stand again like what i said to jenny wijaya families.
Every night i always thinking about this and no answer no idea no hopes.Too scared with the future.
I know all of us have to face death someday.But knowing that it comes unpredictable,don't we all really scared if it comes faster without caution and signs ??

movie review

Well,i should say this movie had released 2 or 3 month ago maybe
But i just watch it yesterday and unpredictable ♥ it's just so awesome man !
Let's take a look...
The first one ♥
HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON

Some of the scene and the cast

The dragon ( toothless)

The owner ( hiccup )

And the others

If some of you haven't watched this yet,be sure to watch it..
It's really an awesome movie !!

the truth

The truth is i never want to be trapped in this feeling anymore gals.It's so painful to me.Anytime i remembered our sweet memories,a pain always facing me.Please,let me know why we can change into like this ??are we no longer a close friend anymore ?Are u forgot the time when we are together and trust that no one can break our friendship ?Is it just a fake ?Cause in fact i don't see any moves from all of you.Are all of you really intend to be like this ?Are all of you not realizing that i was totally feel really lonely and miss all of you a lot ?I'm saying that i want to see all of you just as my friend not a close friend anymore,but every time i start thinking about that,my tears will always fall.I'm saying that i will never want to admit all of you as my close friend but that's really hurting my heart.Yes,now i'm understand,my love to all of you is more that your love to me
And so how can i heal this feeling ?I was so broken until sometimes i'm so scared to make a friends anymore.I'm scared that i will hurt for the seconds time.I'm just so messed up now.Don't know what to do.Don't know what's the best way.Don't know how to face all of you.I'm totally messed up because all of you.

accounting go to die

I was going to insane guys,yeah,as the title of my post today,yesterday exam,accounting,it was totally FAILED !
I don't know why i can't solve the questions,all of my class friends said that they were easy,but for me..NO
Well,i admit it was not so difficult,but 2 hours to solve 30 guestion (25 multiple choice + 5 essay ) not so easy for me.Besides not enough time,i was wondering why i can't i get the answer after i calculate them.Don't know if i wrong with the formula or wrong in calculating,but i'm pretty sure,my accounting failed.Totally !
This is the first time i feel accounting was so difficult until i can predict i will just get 2 or 3 for this time.Since i studying accounting i never felt this way,i always feel that accounting was really easy.No problem with that.
I just don't get the point,i can do all the exam question last 2 or three years,but totally failed for this year.Is it the reason because the question maker had already change?Probably that's the best answer i could get.And the second reason is time.Not enough time to solve all the question.


ps : i hope my score isn't that bad.Pray for me too okay ?? thx ^^

speechless

Yeah,i'm really speechless.After sawing other's blog,i'm just realized,my english is really far from good .
I wonder how can they were really good in it ?i just want to be like them.I love writting but my skill didn't support me as well .I love blogging but sometimes it's hard to find some words for the topics.Maybe i have to learn more from them by reading their blogs daily and learning their english.I have to improve my english.Sometimes i was really shame,cause even my teacher admit that my little sis english is more well than mine.It's just so,you know,if you were lose with your little sis how's your feeling ?being beated by your sis is kinda like lowing my pride,and i hate that.It's worse !! yeah,i know it's weird but that's me,i'm sure there are more people like me.
so,how can i improve my english ?english tuition is not the best idea .Reading english novel ?emm..i'm not sure cause there are several times which i've tried to read them and the result is not good.Sometimes i felt asleep,sometimes i'm not get what their saying.The conclusion is i'm not enjoying them and it's making me dislike reading english novel.Don't say english novel,even in indonesian language,i don't enjoy them.I prefer comics rather than novel.Well,i ever tried read twilight saga which was the best novel for me and the first novel that i ever read finished.But i force to read them. ahhh..i really want to screamm !! i want to imptove my english as well as them.Do you have any suggestion ?
Maybe the first thing i must do is reading their blog daily.Or maybe i can watch dvd with english subtitle ?yes,that's good idea.

ps: i was really thankful if you can give me more suggestion to improve my english, thanks a lot ♥

math oh math = =

Phew..this weeks gonna be a stressed week i guess...
the exam has arrived and i haven't start studying.

Especially accounting and english !!

speaking of exam,well my class later will be on 4th floor (d2 408) anyone in the same class with me ?
i'm in the same class with kelly,anita and kalonica . ♥
The first day of the exam is mathematic . And luckily i'm in social class so i would not join the death day for science class cause their material for mathematic is a CURSE !! cia you science students !! ♥ hahaha
Good luck all for the students that going to have an exam !! ♥

 CIA YOUU ♥ !!!

ps : check www.meitu.com guys ♥ it's really a nice software
here the samples picture edited with meitu

SHINee ♥♥ new upadate !

yipeee...♥♥
i just watched their shows today....and it's pretty nice show..
it's full of jokes and laugh
so do you guys know about shinee hello baby show ? or do you guys know them ? let me introduce them first..
the member is this :

Choi Min Ho ♥ the charisma boy

Onew ♥ the leader

Lee Tae Min ♥ maknae

Key ♥ almighty boy

Jong Hyun ♥ the bling bling boy

They are really handsome and cute right ?? the best of them for me is Choi Min Ho ♥♥

And so back to the shows...,well,this show is pretty rare here cause the dvd is very hard to find out,luckily i have a friend that got this dvd. Maybe i will show you the cover first 

Oh yeah,almost forgotten,check out the baby...he was so so so cute (awwww ♥)

This is the pict :

he was really cute right ♥ ?

his name is yugeon

some of the scene ♥

And finaally...!!! they just release their new second album guys...

And their hits for this album is 'lucifer' ( no regret to watch and listen it )

here is the cover and part of the scene 

ps : dun forget to check it out guys...no regret !!!

3 days from now , the big test is coming closer !! never touch any of them ... = =''

Once

Don't know how to describe this feeling,but it's really pain,it's really hurt and i don't know how to heal this feeling.Sometimes they said friends is more precious then money.Speaking of that,i don't get it.I just thought it was the same.Money can gone as same as friends.What a fool saying that friends will always be there with you cause in fact they are always far.I don't mean there are no real true friends but many of them is not a real friends.
And that was what i feel now.Once we are really near really close.We're doing the same exciting things everyday and it was so much fun with them.Once i can said i cannot live without them.Once i can give my everything for them.Once i cried a lot with them.Once is really the most precious thing for me.
But slowly it changes.Since i'm moving and not in the same class with them,our friendship slowly fade away.It becomes fade and more fade each day.When i start to join their conversation i cannot get it at all.When i start to get it they said you will not get it.Then how can i suppose close with all of you again if all of you always keep a distance like this ?How can we suppose to be like once again ?No.I don't want to hope again.It changes guys.And after all of that,i got a conclusion.Friendship changes as time and condition changes.As we separated by time and condition,our heart and our friendship changes too.

I'm not saying i will erase this precious memory,but i just can said,our way is not the same anymore,our friendships is changes now.Once i was hoping this is just my feeling,this will changes as time go by.But it seems i give up now.Dear friend,not just me who's got this feeling,but there are some of us too who truly feel the same way as me.I just can hope we still friend although we're not so close like once anymore


ps : i will always keeps this memory deep inside my heart. Bye my beloved friend ♥
      i hope the best for you.I hope all of you can happy.I hope all of you can pass the life with smile everyday
      This is the last words from me to you. ♥

new haircut ♥

hiyaaaa.....
finally...after 4 days without cellphone and computer,today i can sit in front my computer and surf on the internet again
wuahhh..i never thought it will be really suffering without them actually,well,cause my cell being robbed,one most precious thing for me is computer.Maybe cause everyday i was always surfing on the internet and suddenly 4 days without it,it's kinda weird for me.
So..as the title of my blog today...taraaaa !! ♥  new haircut !!
umm..actually it's not really different style,i just cut my 'poni' and my back hair a little.
and this is what i mean (just realized my english was really bad )

i make this pict smaller cause my acne is looks very clear if it's bigger.

♥♥♥

pict taken with webcam

(my face is really weird here,isn't it)

speaking of acne,well,it's not heal very well.It seems i need an extra time and money to take care of my face.

Since i'm not consume any of doctor medicine,it become like this.

I bought a lot of body shop stuff to heal my face but i think it's not really usefull.Do all of you have any suggestion for me to heal acne without doctor medicine ?? please..i need it...

thank you ♥♥

and the last one , THE LAST AIR BENDER , finally premiere...♥♥
gonna watch it around these weeks. ♥ !
wait for me aang hahahaha

BFF ♥

it's been a while i'm not updated my blog
well,the school have been started and i was really busy preparing this and that
new class = new hope = new life
hahhahaha

last sunday i'm going out with my bff
i can't tell how much fun it was but this pict will tell you everything ♥

the kimchi ♥

it's really yummy !

yummy yummy yummy ♥

J.C.O yoghurt ♥

my crazy bff ♥

playing my laptop and this pict taken by suyanti

Macchiato ♥♥
crazy time - NARSISSSSS !! ♥♥

ps: love every sweet moment with friends...♥♥♥

i hope we can stay like this forever until death seperated us

LOVE YOU ALL MY FRIENDS ♥ !

robbed !!!

oh my goshhh...this accident was the most freaking out experience in my life...
i never thought how much dangerous it was,like what we usually read on newspaper...
we never thought this could be happen to us .
hopefully i'm okay just my cellphone and alittle money got robbed..i still remembered his shirt...white T-shirt,what was pity of me is why i'm not looking to his plat number ??pity of me...but maybe at that time i was really shocked,i can't even shout anymore,can't cry too.I just can saw my bag being robbed,and i was really freezing at that time.
well,the boys must be have looking at me,i just remembered at that time i was going to pull my bag and suddenly they come and robbed it.

from this accident,i promise...really,i'm not going to ride motorcyle anymore,even i'm driving or not.even sit on i would not anymore !!but if there's really no way,i would , but i will not take bag and cellphone or wallet anymore.

CRAZY THING WILL HAPPEN EVERYTIME IN EVERY SECONDS OF YOUR LIFE !!!
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