sometimes,I am so afraid
Afraid of waiting
Afraid of being hurt
Afraid of something I shouldn't
Afraid that my future won't be a good one for me
I am scared,scared of everything
Once I trust person easily,now I'm easily suspect my best friend
Still,I can't trust nobody now
Once I always cried for happiness,but now I cried for sadness,hurt,feeling of being underestimate,etc
I'm regretting whatever I said about my old friend once
Actually,now,they are the most precious thing for me
I can tell how much I hurt to them
I can tell how much I was insulted to them
I can tell how deep was my heart wounded and scratched
Rather than my new friends,I'm trust my old friend better
Why do I realize this now ?
Why I leave my old friends because they hurt me only once ?
My dearest old friends,I am so sorry for what have I said about you on
Monday, February 28, 2011
So damn sh*t !
What the hell is this ?are u making fun of me ?!! How come there're no pictures even one in our inauguration party album !!? I'm there right ?are u so blind ??or am I so invisible ! I'm so fed up !! So damn mad ! Why is that everyone doing this to me !!!I hate this !I hate this INDEED !
And especially for this one,I can't understand why !!I saw everyone in there ! EVERYONE ! But mine ?N.O.T.H.I.N.G !!! That's undeliberately show that I'm not attend that !it's just the same like I'm not coming to attend !! I paid for this !! But how come the result is really insulted me like this ! This is so INSULTED me let you to know ! So so and sooooo !!!!
I thought thousand of reasons,am I not pretty so you're not snap me even one pictures ?or you're just focusing on persons that pretty in your eye sight ?or you think I'm not the class members ?or do you have a sensitive feeling with me so you're don't want to snap me even one photo only ??
Argh !every seconds I write this and though about this,my tears like going to fall down !!I can't ACCEPT this ! I can't !!
I hate this ! I hate that person !!
If someone read this,and suddenly realize he is the one,sorry,I don't care !I'm just so fed up,and I need to confess all of this hurt and insulted feeling
Sorry if I'm not pretty,yet I'm not white yet I'm not fashionable ! I know normally I'm not pretty good in your eyes ! But please,don't insult me like this ! This is so damn hurt,hurt my feeling a lot !and how ashamed me as well !! I know you're rounded with pretty girls among you !!you're famous,famous as a very good photographer,and once I think you in that way too,but now....you're just a suck person for me !!!!
And especially for this one,I can't understand why !!I saw everyone in there ! EVERYONE ! But mine ?N.O.T.H.I.N.G !!! That's undeliberately show that I'm not attend that !it's just the same like I'm not coming to attend !! I paid for this !! But how come the result is really insulted me like this ! This is so INSULTED me let you to know ! So so and sooooo !!!!
I thought thousand of reasons,am I not pretty so you're not snap me even one pictures ?or you're just focusing on persons that pretty in your eye sight ?or you think I'm not the class members ?or do you have a sensitive feeling with me so you're don't want to snap me even one photo only ??
Argh !every seconds I write this and though about this,my tears like going to fall down !!I can't ACCEPT this ! I can't !!
I hate this ! I hate that person !!
If someone read this,and suddenly realize he is the one,sorry,I don't care !I'm just so fed up,and I need to confess all of this hurt and insulted feeling
Sorry if I'm not pretty,yet I'm not white yet I'm not fashionable ! I know normally I'm not pretty good in your eyes ! But please,don't insult me like this ! This is so damn hurt,hurt my feeling a lot !and how ashamed me as well !! I know you're rounded with pretty girls among you !!you're famous,famous as a very good photographer,and once I think you in that way too,but now....you're just a suck person for me !!!!
the sweetest dream I have ever dreamt up until now
Wkwkwkwkwkwk,still,I couldn't stop smiling when I write this on m blog. It reminds me with the dream I've dreamt last night. For me it was so wonderful,but I guess you're all would think I'm weird. You pretty know well that I'm a K-POP FEVER right ? And two boy band that I love the most was SHINee and B2ST,and..........yesterday I dreamt about b2ST !!! WAAAAA (couldn't help my laugh now) and in that dream,I was treat so special by them !!! 6 of them always stay beside me rather than the other girls, and I feel like they were really being my friends,so when we separate at last,we take a lot of photographs,and we promise to keep contact via TWITTER !!! And after that....... I woke up. The dream was so real,even when I had wake up,I tried to find my cell. Nothing was there hihihihi...but though this was just a dream,I'm still happy,because it seems my little sis was so jealous about that,she want to have a dream about B2ST too !! Keep doing it !hahahaha !!
20-02-2011
the feeling of being underestimate
A feeling of being underestimate,do u ever felt it bloggers ?if you do,maybe you felt quite the same with me.today,when I went to practice volley,that kind of feeling really shown up itself.
Let me tell you,u know,I'm really small,I'm not tall yet I'm light. I'm totally a weak girl. I like sports but I don't have enough strength to do it perfectly like the others. In various sports,maybe I'm just good in swimming better than badminton or VOLLEY !!
So since last year,I have join volley for a P2S1 match. I'm totally a loser..until now,I still can't service,the base of volley game. But since it was fun,I still continue to play it. But today,I just felt everyone is not playing for fun anymore,they play seriously. I know we have to play serious to win the match. But it doesn't mean you don't care with a player who can't do a service !! It started when me with my other friends,both of us can't service at first,so she give me and my friends some advice in order to service perfectly,when my friends able to service 5 times and I still cannot,suddenly she ran away,not coaching me anymore,she goes to play with the others and let me alone to do the service. Okay,I'm thinking maybe I have to practice without coach. I start to practice practice and practice but still I can't,when suddenly I'm able to do the service she's not care,she said we have to do passing,doesn't that really underestimate me ?you're the one who told me to practice service but when I'm succeed even look you're not !
Today I was really disappointed with you,if this post being read by someone and that person realize the person I'm talking and tell her,who cares ?I just wanna share all my feelings,that's what blog is being create right ?
A feeling of being underestimate,do u ever felt it bloggers ?if you do,maybe you felt quite the same with me.today,when I went to practice volley,that kind of feeling really shown up itself.
Let me tell you,u know,I'm really small,I'm not tall yet I'm light. I'm totally a weak girl. I like sports but I don't have enough strength to do it perfectly like the others. In various sports,maybe I'm just good in swimming better than badminton or VOLLEY !!
So since last year,I have join volley for a P2S1 match. I'm totally a loser..until now,I still can't service,the base of volley game. But since it was fun,I still continue to play it. But today,I just felt everyone is not playing for fun anymore,they play seriously. I know we have to play serious to win the match. But it doesn't mean you don't care with a player who can't do a service !! It started when me with my other friends,both of us can't service at first,so she give me and my friends some advice in order to service perfectly,when my friends able to service 5 times and I still cannot,suddenly she ran away,not coaching me anymore,she goes to play with the others and let me alone to do the service. Okay,I'm thinking maybe I have to practice without coach. I start to practice practice and practice but still I can't,when suddenly I'm able to do the service she's not care,she said we have to do passing,doesn't that really underestimate me ?you're the one who told me to practice service but when I'm succeed even look you're not !
Today I was really disappointed with you,if this post being read by someone and that person realize the person I'm talking and tell her,who cares ?I just wanna share all my feelings,that's what blog is being create right ?
Tuesday, February 08, 2011
Mikroskil entrepreneur day
sherly,oliv,kartini
tipul narcissistic mode on :)
our menu [empek empek] nyumm !
tipul,oliv,me,kartini,AH,vivi,vivian,sherly ;p
'do u gonna buy it ?' xp
again some narcissistic picture :) (oliv and sherly)
me with oliv xD
TESTER :9 X9
the kerupuk !! wkwk xD
kartini,tipul,me,oliv and vivi
chef : 'what are u watching ?give me the salt NOW !!' xD
kartini,oliv and sherly ;p
i'm like a zombie...horrible face :(
tipul narcissistic picture :)
the appliances
me with cathong :)
urghhh =.=''
kartini ultra promotion smile hihihih :p
other's stand :)
AH : ' i'm just too sexy awww'
another zombie face =.=
the stand
we're in action !!
tester :99
narcissistic !!! *snap*
tipul,sherly,kartini,vivi and AH
Saturday, February 05, 2011
15-01 (pt.2)
me and queen :)
me and oli :)
oli,me,lyd,queen :)
haha :p
:)
:))
cindy :)
blur but still nice xp
queen and valen :)
nice candid xp
blurblurblur
love this :)
:D
love my friends :)
LOVE POKER !!! 15-01 POKER'S DAY !! :D
Friday, February 04, 2011
a little heart talk
Dear blog,I wish I'm only a robot,so I won't feel the hurt being betray like this. Everyday,I was thinking about how you do today,what are you doing today,well,maybe I'm not text her first,but I wish you are the one who text me first. I do really miss the sweet and sorrow memories between us. But as like as time flow so fast,the memories too. I'm just feel,she didn't really care about me anymore,once she chat a lot with me,she tell all of her secret to me,share all of her problems and happiness with me. But now ? Not anymore,when I tell about mine,u just felt nothing special,sometimes not hearing. You care a lot about the others now. You share things with others now,you leave me behind you leave me...when I felt alone like this now,you felt happy with the others. I've been cried a lot since it was become like this. The pain two years ago is now come and hurt me back again. I've always deal with some sort same problem. About friendship.
I've always wish,every year,I could be stronger than last. I've always wish I had a more better life with my friends...this year I hope,I'm not going to be fooled again,fool by the same problems,I really want to share with my two dearest friends,that was always able to hear my complaints. I love them. I really do.
From now on,I wish I'm not this weak anymore,I want to become stronger,able to surpass problems like this. outside there,still many peoples,that waiting for a real best friend so what am I scared about ??
Stronger ! Stronger ! Stronger ! Yes !!!
I've always wish,every year,I could be stronger than last. I've always wish I had a more better life with my friends...this year I hope,I'm not going to be fooled again,fool by the same problems,I really want to share with my two dearest friends,that was always able to hear my complaints. I love them. I really do.
From now on,I wish I'm not this weak anymore,I want to become stronger,able to surpass problems like this. outside there,still many peoples,that waiting for a real best friend so what am I scared about ??
Stronger ! Stronger ! Stronger ! Yes !!!
POKER inauguration party
from left to right
(ivy,me,valen,anita,queenta)
(ivy,me,valen,anita,queenta)
me with tipul
oliv and tejo
me with oliv
me with jessica
me with wendhelin
angoh,me and angela
fenny,me
meet the boys :)
the trphies for teacher :)
ah and aken
paralel 2 dan 3 xp
poker inauguration cake :)
well,it's still many more,but it almost 12 now,better go to bed now :)
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