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When i was little,this feeling never come to my mind,i never think such way about her.But now it's changing.It's a rare feeling and i know it was not good.Once i was always smarter than her,i was always win almost everything than her,my mom and dad proud with me rather than her.I was really happy that time.But i know she wasn't..i never thought about her feeling,i was always want to be number one in everything.
Now,slowly but sure,it's like she's start to take that all from me,now she's smarter than me,she's even kinder than me,everyone proud with her,all of them.Somehow i was really jealous with her.I'm not used to be lose by her and now i have to face that fact.It was really troublesome.Everyone praised her in front of me.Somehow i felt like if i was near with her everyone will compare me with her or else she will be praised and i looked like a dumby there.I hate that indeed...
But i know this feeling was wrong,i know it.Everyone certainly had their own talent that was given by god.No one in this world that don't have their own talent.So,i cannot be selfish,this time is not my time,but i know someday,i will do my best and make my families and friends proud that they have me in this world.

SHINee come to INDONESIA !!♥

Have all of you,big fans of shinee know about this news ?pretty sure yes you did.I am so so super excited when i've been informed about this news.The most great news is the ticket to enter that concert is for FREE !let me repeat it,FREE.But pity of me,i couldn't attend that concert,knowing that i'm living in medan which far from a place where concert will be held,knowing that the transport fee is really super expensive,and my parents would not let me go.I can predict what would my parents say.When i said "mom may i go to jakarta ?" , mom "for what ?" , me "to attend a concert" , mom "insane".Short and clear.No way i can go.No way.

Well,i will share some information about that here :
Title : korea-indonesia friendship concert
Place : indonesia (jakarta , tennis indoor senayan jakarta )
Time : 12 oct 2010 (19.30-21.25)

ticket :email to arirangFC@arirangtv.com,(name,gender,age,phone number,email)

300 first sender will get the infront seat which mean you can watch jonghyun oppa,min ho oppa,key oppa,tae min oppa and onew oppa with really near distance !!!i am so jealous with all of you who able to attend that concert...aaaaaaa...!!!

The sits are just able to fit 2500 peoples only,so come on email or check arirang.com to know more about the information.

(wish i can go)

SHINee forever ♥ !

minho,taemin,jonghyun,onew,key

(aaaaa min ho oppa,you're really hot !)♥

Flashback

it's been a while since holiday,i never contact my old friends.Well,i do with one of them,cause we're really close,but for the other i guess not.I don't know why,is it because i'm the one who's care about my pride so i don't texting them first ??emm..i don't know,i have text them about a month ago but the result is disappointing me,they reply with a short and clear message.We're only texting about what's important between us or when we need her help.That's what i get around this year.Maybe the conclusion i get last time still never change.I do never believe in best friend forever in this world.Why ?because i really had through so many experience that proven my conclusion about that.Well,i'm not intend to say around this world no one have a best friend but i'm just saying that maybe i haven't got anyone for my really best friend.

Yesterday,when i search my videos,suddenly i saw some videos,videos that remind me with my old friends,when we got really crazy time and really have fun.In sudden i really missed that time so much.I'm going to upload this video here,but don't laugh okay ??it's really embrassing.I'm just going to upload one since it was not so crazy like the other one.

And here some old pictures,when we're in a narsism to the MAX (hahaha ♥)

my short hair is really pisses me off 

= ='' goshhh !!what's wrong with my face ?it's so so so ugly !!

realize,i'm really not suit with short hair = =''

i'm the weird one,the black one,the worse pose = =''

my hair is really too too too short waaaa xo

wkwkwkwkwk ♥

BBQ party at my house !!!

wohoooo...!!!it's really a great bbq party guys...well,because i've never join bbq and finally i can sense it and it was in my house..!!i am just so happy :))
at first,we're (monika,vivi,oliv,ah,felix and me) going to brastagi to buy the ingredients...well,it's pretty fun there,chattering a lot of cooking stuff that i don't know any of them,but thanks for them,now i know a little of them,we're looks like young mother hahaha :),anw we're buying a lot of ingredients till we must pay 662.000 rupiah,i should say it was very big amount.

at night,all of us,each other have their own works.Me as the owner of the house,can't join the kitchen working because i must go down and up stairs to take this and that and to open the door for my friend.

 preparing the ingredients :)

olivia-the chef ♥

narsism everywhere !! ♥

drinking the vodka hahaha :)

playing computer whenever they relax...

vivi is the james bond here...>0<

hahaha ♥

narsism to the MAX !

                                                    ah,u look weirdo here = =

SHERLY !LOL ♥ !

from right : monika,vivi,angoh,oli

we're finished at 12 a.m,preparing all of the ingredients.Then it's time to BBQ party.
Check this pictures,these were all what we're doing at 5th floor..hahahaha

angoh ♥

ken

cooking the sangwo ♥

tejo ckckck = =''

yum yummy ♥ 

mrs.marlina hahaha ♥

WOW ♥ !

miss cute claudia ☻♥

mar and mar

(marlina and mariana)

 who is this ?☺

look at my pony..it's so igghhh = = ''

note : they are not a couple 

hahahaha

hahahahaha ☺

wkwkwkwkw ♥

note : this is the real couple 

hahaha ♥

monika ♥

$ ajimbo $

ikkhhh..that silly face hahaha ☺

smile click !! hahaha

theo,yika,mar,and sherly

oh my = =

vivai ♥

ckckckck = =''

and look at my weirdo face = =''